Our Pillar Point Day ~ May 17, 1999 A day that will Forever be in our Hearts

*May 16th ~ God lays a foundation for His Apon happily ever after . . . "I am Husband and a Father to the fatherless."

*May 17th ~ 5:30 a.m.  God continued to prepare with His still small voice, “I will release you today."        A release from the natural to the supernatural.  His ways are higher than ours.

"You scrutinize my path and my lying down, 
and are intimately acquainted with all my ways."  Psalm 139:3

*May 17th ~ 10:30 a.m.   The last interaction with my husband he called home and almost whispered, “I miss you!” 

"You have enclosed me behind and before,

And laid Your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;

It is too high, I cannot attain to it."  Psalm 139: 5-6

Remembering is part of the growth process.

Tears water the soil and
give strength to keep on walking.

*May 17th ~ 4:00 p.m. I heard God continue to encourage me through the day, "Take the kids outside and play with them."  We jumped on the trampoline, played on the swings, and laughed together."                      If I could have stopped the remaining course of events I would have ~ but then . . .
I would have been God.

*May 17th ~ 5:15 p.m.     Eight unsuspecting children lined up on the curb at Chick-Fil-A eating ice cream cones.  Life and death intersect in the heavenlies.

He believed two lies:

1.  I will never be free

2.  They will be better off without me
Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy                                                                                                  God comes to give life – abundant!

"If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,

And the light around me will be night,"

Even the darkness is not dark to You,

And the night is as bright as the day.

Darkness and light are alike to You." Psalm 13:9,11-12

*May 17th ~ 5:30 p.m. As I rounded the corner of my house and saw that his truck was not there, I wanted to run, perhaps even take off to the grocery store!   God spoke clearly, “Groceries will come into the house”.

            Groceries and more have poured in. 
God has provided abundantly.

"My frame was not hidden from You,

When I was made in secret,

And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;

Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;

And in Your book were all written

The days that were ordained for me,

When as yet there was not one of them." 
Psalm 139:15-16

*May 17th ~ 6 p.m.  Grace and Peace knock on my door along with the police officer bringing the news.

"How precious also are Your thoughts to me,
O God!

How vast is the sum of them!

If I should count them,
they would outnumber the sand.

When I awake, I am still with You." 
Psalm 139:17-18

*May 17th ~ 7 p.m.  It’s time to announce the news to my children: 

“You have a new daddy!”

“...the glory of children are their fathers.” Proverbs 17:6

BUT

“A father of the fatherless and
a judge for the widows,

Is God in His holy habitation.

God  makes a home for the lonely;

He leads out the prisoners into prosperity.” 
 Psalm 68:5

In the natural I still prefer

to be called Mrs. Bobby Apon,

but in the supernatural
I LOVE having God as Husband. 

*May 17th ~ 8 p.m.  The body of Christ rushes in.

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,  who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.  For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ.  But if we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; or if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which is effective in the patient enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer; and our hope for you is firmly grounded, knowing that as you are sharers of our sufferings, so also you are sharers of our comfort.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

Our treasury:              

God is Husband

God is Father

Grace and Peace

God still speaks to us in His still small voice

Letters of memory poured in sharing stories of the one we loved.

God’s provision  "The Lord is a sun and shield The Lord gives grace and glory no good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly."  Psalm 11

God’s peace ~ a peace that surpasses understanding

God’s protection and boundaries for the widow and fatherless

God’s is a promise keeper

God has enriched our lives with a deeper understanding of His Word

God has blessed with an enlarged perspective of the body of Christ

God has given us a greater understanding of warfare, the battle and the Victor

Sanctification

We have walked from strength to strength.  Psalm 84

We have experienced the power of prayer

The Good Shepherd restores our soul

The dark has created open doors to share the Light

God entrusted us with this mystery ~
may we continue to trust Him back.

The journey still takes T.I.M.E. –

Trusting In the Mystery of Eternity,

but we believe it is all for

our good and His glory!

“For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God.”  2 Corinthians 4:15

Year after year, May 17th is a pancake and ice cream night as the family gatheres to testify of God’s faithfulness as Father!  Pancakes because that was daddy’s specialty, and ice cream because God knew . . . as we slurped those cones on the curb.

The best part of the night is re-watching the end of the memorial service ~ WOW . . . it is almost worth it all just to hear Billy Goodwin and Eddie Middleton gloriously sing Arise My Love!

May 18th ~ All better (smile)!   "And the God of all grace . . . will Himself restore you and             make you strong, firm and steadfast."  I Peter 5:10

“You called in trouble, and I rescued you;

I answered you in the hiding place of thunder;

I proved you at the waters of Meribah.”  Psalm 81:7